Weary

Keep in mind, this was written at just passed midnight. 

People often say that they're affected by the seasons, I have to say this is true. Winter in Australia is coming up. It's time when I go into 'emotional hibernation.' So, from now until 'the sun comes out' I have realised that I pretty much just switch off emotionally, since the clouds have come over I have been feeling strange, and I've felt like this for a couple of years now. In summer I get fully pumped and on fire and passionate. But in winter, I'm cold & I'm mentally slower but deeper.

And on top of winter coming, so feeling emotionally out of it, I'm just weary. Weary is the perfect word, kind of more then exhausted, and not just physically exhausted (from longs days and short nights) but emotionally exhausted, 'educationally drowning,' and socially exhausted (finding it harder to love those who its hard to love, finding it easy to stick to my favourite friends.)

And I feel like I have the toughest job, that is making me weary, and other people have it harder, but I want words to speak so that those of you who don't know my Jesus. I love you, I want you to know him, because its the most exciting and most important thing to me, and I want you to be chilling in heaven with me. That would be great, whoever you are, I love you. Let Jesus challenge you. 

'Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.' Matthew 11:28.

You know the only thing that is left to do? Go to him, I need to run to him, I want to fall into his arms. I like the analogy falling into his arms, it means I'm putting complete trust in him and then being in his arms, where I can find rest.