I will not be moved

I was reading a blog today, it said 'every 2 years you look back on your life and say, man I was an idiot, I was so wrong.' I went upstairs lay on my bed and had self-induced spasms, this is a really weird thing I do when I'm frustrated, but the reason for me doing this was that I didn't want to fall away. I never want to look back and say 'man, I was an idiot for being a Christian, so many wasted years.' Never, ever. I was so frustrated, so scared that I would fall away. And then I read a book that completly redefined what it means to have genuine faith (crazy love by Francis Chen, brilliant.) I never want to fall away. Ever.

You know whats super exciting though?? I'm convicted that I don't plan whats going to happen to me.  God does, and he is good, he is perfect. So his plans will be good and perfect. AAAAND, Ephesians tells me I have been 'sealed with the spirit.' So, my conclusion is that for me to fall away, either my faith is not real. Or God has failed. Which is more likely? The dude that created the universe, has never let civilization down before suddenly decides to fail on me, or that my faith was never genuine. That it was just an act. I need to make ABSOLUTELY sure that my faith is 100% genuine. And that I work on it, never let myself drift downstream, or away from my faith, even just a little.

'I will not be moved,
From this rock in,
Which my feet are welded in.

I will not be swayed,
From this truth,
You have persuaded me of.'




Again, I am very tired, so this may make minimal sense. But hopefully it does, or hopefully you're smart enough to figure it out for yourself :)