Defeatism vs Idealism

Ok, so recently, I've been feeling a little ... defeatist. 'I'll never meet God's standards, I'll never be as passionate as God wants.' 'I'm too proud for God to love me.' And then this will spur me into an excited, 'No, I'm gonna just stop being proud, I'll never have a proud thought again.' 'I'll get so fired up now.'

The first defeatist attitude is entirely pointless, because God's love is UNCONDITIONAL. God's love isn't affected by my pride, by my stuff ups. No, then how could anyone stand before his throne? What could they say?? NOTHING. 'No one is righteous, not even one.' - Romans 3:10. But thats the great thing about God's love; its unconditional.


And my idealist attitude, as my sister would say 'idealisms are so much harder to live out than to say.' So much harder. How powerless am I in the face of these MASSIVE things I'm promising? I'll never be proud? How will I even achieve that?? Impossible. BUT, 'what is impossible with man is possible with God.'  - Luke 18:27. I can't change my heart, my will power is powerless. But God is powerful, so my idealisms need to be played out with trust in God.


So, in the end, I'm never gonna be perfect, God won't love me less. And God is powerful, I need to trust him wholly to help me live out my plans.


Food for thought: One of my friends said this:- 'I know that I don't need to do anything. God meets me where I'm at.'