Let Go

Just sitting on the bus, writing down some terrible, but very personal, and deeply emotional lyrics. Finally I arrive at the train station and sit down on the little chair. My friend sees me writing and immediately knows what I'm doing, of COURSE his immediate reaction is to try and get me to show him. I couldn't show him,  I mean they weren't about me, it wasn't about anyone it just felt like my heart on paper, I couldn't show this to him. But minutes later we were discussing raps he wrote, and, intrigued I wanted to see them. I begged him. But, even though it felt like his heart on paper, he would happily hand them over. 

Only now do I see how this is true of all of life for me. All of my personal things (particularly emotions) are kept personal. They're not for the world to see. They're for me to bottle up. Besides emotions are embarrassing. But, I'm quite happy for people to tell me about their emotions. Whats wrong with that picture?? Firstly, bottling does nothing positive. It just gets to the point constantly where I feel like, with my emotions all bottled up, that if someones shakes up this little bottle I created, or even taps it, I will probably explode. And secondly, these people care about me. Especially my Christian brothers and sisters, they care deeply about me. If they care enough to ask, not just out of politeness, but out of love, shouldn't I respond the same. And thirdly and finally, Jesus says I will take your burden from you. My emotions burden me. One of the ways he'll lift it, aside from prayer, is by my brothers and sisters. Sometimes all I need is an ear, and BAM, the burden's gone.

What am I holding to my chest? What do I need to let go of?