In Comparison

I've been thinking about comparison recently,  so, for example at FNACC (Kids church that I lead), because of my age, I'm' massive', and have developed 'muscles' that, in comparison to them, make me really good at sport. But then, I get to my biblestudy group, and suddenly, I'm clearly the worst player. Like, seriously I'm so unco-ordinated. They're all agile, quick and the like. And then there's me. Ridiculously unco.

A lot of people do this with how 'good' they are. We compare ourselves to each other, (and I'm one of the worst offenders.) I'm always like, 'oh, but its ok, I am way better then that Steve kid. God's clearly gonna accept me because I'm better then him. But then again, Poppy's pretty great, I'll never be as good as her, oh man, I give up.'

As though I could get before the throne of God, and go 'Oh, do you remember that one time I did the dishes without even being asked, and Steve just sat there, see look, I'm WAY better then Steve. Let me into heaven.' a) that is so lame. b) How's that going to work? God doesn't compare us to each other. He compares us to perfection. His son, who never screwed up. How am I going to live up? But thats the great thing about the gospel, God takes the flawed, the weak, the screw-ups and saves them. He doesn't pick and choose the best.

Comparing will get me nowhere.

P.S. Apologies ^^ was written way past my bedtime while my head was seething with thoughts, so when I read over it in the morning, I'll probably realize its like thought vomit. Just saying.