Spare Change

This afternoon I just became ridiculously frustrated at my helplessness to right the worlds wrongs, and fix the worlds problems. I literally thought; 'I'm a broke teenager, what can I do? No matter what I do, I'm just chipping away at a wall with a tiny pick-axe, and it's too big for me to tackle. It feels like the statistics of hunger, poverty, child labour and slavery just climb higher and higher every time I look at them.' Its always unsettled me, but never quite to this extent, I basically didn't speak (which, trust me, is a big thing) for quite a while and wore a hoodie and other crazy teenage rebel things. It was a deep frustration, much deeper then probably ever before.

Call me a wide-eyed, dreamy teenager, but I was thinking about what my spare change could do, seriously, if I saved every 5c piece and dollar coin, what could I end up with? Well, it only takes $7 to free a slave, so I'd say a lot, and I also realised that it's not just me (duh), there are entire organisations committed to eradicating injustices in this world, and as corny as it sounds; the only way we can make a difference is by working together. (What did I tell you? It's corny.)


*I feel like blog posts can often get really long and arduous without a break, so right here, right now, get up, go for a walk around the room, and then continue reading :)*

Also, in a kind of related but not really way, I've been getting weirdly anxious about things post-school, like money and how I'll afford everything in life and who I'll marry and how I'll handle the job I want, and balance everyday life along with work. I worry about that stuff all the time! I didn't realise how much I did until I was thinking, (at the time I was feeling really worried) 'I feel like a 16 year old with a 20 year olds problems.' And then it hit me, I didn't have to worry about these thing; I knew that I had a creator who had planned out all my days. If Igo without money, he planned it and he is still good, and if I get a different job, he is in control, and he is still good. And so I've prayed that God will give me rest from my burdens, and I know he can do just that!

'Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.' - The biography of Jesus, according to Matthew (chapter 6 verse 34)

   'Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.' - The biography of Jesus, according to Matthew (chapter 11 verse 28)


P.S. Once again, I feel like I've said a lot of words without really saying anything, but sometimes my heart says things that my mouth just can't express. And tonight is one of those nights, there are so many things I just wish I could express, but my inarticulateness gets in the way.