I'm in love ...

OKAY - this is one characteristic I've found of people who are in love, they just want to spend as much time as they can with said 'loved one.' And any time not spent with them is time wasted.

I've finally discovered that I've fallen in love with God in that sense, the other day I was offered a lift down to the train station and my insides went into a flutter and I began internally freaking out and flatly refused them, and then it hit me. My bus time always = my bible time. I wanted, I longed to spend more time with He who breathed the universe into existence. I've fallen in love with Jesus.

I think I'm really just at the beginning of a massive journey. Journey with me?

All Grown-Up

I remember when I was a little kid looking up to my leaders like they were Jesus. Any fault of theirs could be explained anyway, and they were just SO wise. And ... and they were so grown-up. And so mature, and  so sporty, and ... just so amazing.

Anyway recently, I was on a camp leading these kids, and I suddenly stopped, and I was like ... umm that ... that, that up there ... thats me. I'm the grown up, I'm the mature one (haha) I'm the wise one (haha) I'm the sporty one (HAHA.) I've started driving a car, and earning money, and doing exams that are run by the government. When did I get so old?



Anyway, I'm confused, and I'm sure it shows.

This is how I feel.

This is a song I wrote called consume, this song is exactly how I feel right, everything about it. Its just like my mind oozing out of my pores (umm ... gross image in my head right now ... don't even imagine ... )  This song has pretty much left me in tears, it is so close to my heart. Anyway, I feel like I'm kind of at a stagnant point in my faith, and I just want God to consume me. All of me.

Anyway, after all that 'hype', lower your expectations. Its not that great. Its not super-creative lyric wise, but its just so ... explanatory to me

Take my heart,
Take my life,
Take my everything,
Into you.

Mold my heart,
Mold my mind,
Mold my everything,
(to) be like you.

Consume me,
Take me for all I am,
Consume me,
Take it all.

Make my heart,
Make my mind,
Make my everything,
Like yours.

(instrumental)

Consume me,
Take me for all I am,
Consume me,
Take it all,
Take it all.

I can know everything ABOUT God, but unless I know God ... its nothing.